You always wereand you alwayswill be free.

You know, once Dad passes you will be able to heal and move on.”To think of what I said now makes my stomach hurt.My Mother looked and me and said, “I would take care of him in that statefor the rest of my life if I could. That’s my guy.”At that point I realized that, that was my Mom’s love.At one point they were boyfriend and girlfriend.That was who she fell in love with.That was probably the first time I saw my parents as two kids that fell in love.

And sometimes all at onceeverything changes.


You have a beautifully
infinite mind.

But don’t chase these mystical experiencesor feelings of light.They are meant to be rungs on a ladder.And like most things they will change. They will disappear.They aren’t meant to stay.They are meant to be teachers.They show us what is possible,and give us hope thatwe can find our way home.

I can’t even look at the sun nowwithout thinking of you.Every star, every cloud,every beautiful thing I seemeans nothing to me if you are not here.What is that?That thing that makes the worldless important without you?Come and find mewhen we leave this place.When we wake from this dream.I am sure that I will still be in love with you.


One day you will awakenand when you doyou will realizethis has all been a dream.

They lied to you.

You are not this body.
You are in fact a part of every single thing in this universe.

You are the cosmos.
You gave brith to the stars.

Now if you only knew how infinite you are.

One day you will drop this body and live on,
and at that time this will all just be a dream you once had.

When we leave this placewe will find each other again.I promise.

Well here we are.You wouldn't believewhat I've been through.It was like trying to wear shoes that didn't fit.But I found you.You should have seen megoing from face to facelooking into each set of eyeswaiting for you to stare back at me.